...like a rock at the bottom of the ocean!

And for love’s sake, each mistake, ah, you forgave...

And soon both of us learned to trust...

Not run away, it was no time to play

We build it up and build it up and build it up

And now it’s solid

Solid as a rock

That’s what this love is

That’s what we’ve got…

And nothing’s changed it (Ooh)

The thrill is still hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot

You didn’t turn away

When the sky went gray

Somehow we managed

We had to stick together (Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…)

You didn’t bat an eye

When I made you cry

We knew down the line

We would make it better...

- Solid (Ashford & Simpson)

*shout.out to C.M - I borrowed your idea for the song at the top, it was just SO befitting!* ;-)

When you have the luxury of having true blue friends - you understand the lyrics of this song and exactly what they really mean. 2008 was a "different" year for me. I had quite a few firsts happen to me - and not all of them were good, but life lessons none-the-less. I don't have it in me to do a WHOLE New Year Blog right now - but to all of my TRUE.BLUE folk, know that I love and appreciate you so much...probably more than I ever have before!!!!! Thank you for hanging in there with me over the year(s) and I look forward to another year of loving you...

...for a lifetime!

Beyond The Smiles: The Confessions of A Star

SkylerNicole

I Wonder If He Knows...

* I wonder if he knows what I'm feeling...

I think I forgot what it felt like to not have to worry about trying SO hard FOR someone - and instead just be. I think I forgot what it felt like to enjoy walking the journey together with another because I was always running out of breath trying to go the EXTRA mile and I always ended up at the end by myself.

* I wonder if he knows that I hope he stays around...

I know I'm good at pushing people away at the drop of a dime. I know it's easy for me to become "uninterested" sometimes and just move on to someone else because the person isn't WHO I want them to be...but not now, not this time.

* I wonder if he knows that he makes me smile...

I laugh all the time when something is funny - I smile when something touches me. He touches me... He gives the BEST hugs...I feel safe, secure, wanted - even NEEDED when his arms are around me. He looks at me and I can see that he doesn't want to be anywhere else but by my side. *pauses to smile*


I wonder if he knows that he's changed my outlook...that I no longer view him as I did in times past. I wonder if he knows that he's changed my mind...that I no longer think of him as just an option - but more along the lines of a priority. I wonder if he knows...


Beyond The Smiles: The Confessions of A Star,
SkylerNicole

Me, You, and Him...

You keep reaching out for me - only I can't reach back because my arms are full...I keep holding on to the idea of him - and I can't explain why.

*While you're thinking of me - I'm wishing for him...
*While you're calling me - I'm text messaging him...
*While you're trying to make me a part of your reality - I'm dreaming about what a life with him would be like...

*You've been wondering why I haven't called - I'm wondering why he wont call me back...
*I can't drive across town to hang out with you - but I'd fly across states to catch a glimpse of him...

Why?? Could be a deeper reason...could just be stupidity...

*He stresses me out - and then you rub the knots out of my neck...
*He forgets that I exist - and then you show up only because you know I'll be there...
*He's too busy to communicate - and yet you have time to write a song just for me...
*He didn't mean to catch feelings - and you willingly admit that you're in love...

Why are things so complicated, or rather - why do we MAKE things so complicated???


Beyond The Smiles: The Confessions Of a Star

SkylerNicole