Can I Have My Heart Back...Please????

"How could the one I gave my heart to...????"

I understand that I willingly GAVE you my heart...I'm not confused about that. I made a CONSCIOUS decision to give you the BEST part of me - that thing which exudes life and love...the essence of my very being. But YOU made a promise to keep it safely in the palm of your hand and do it no harm...yet you BROKE it. YOU promised to take FULL responsibility of my happiness...yet today you're the epitome of sadness for me. Strange...

I used to think of you and my heart would skip a beat because of the joy that I attached to your existence...yet now when I think of you I feel numb (no beats, no skips, no murmurs) because in losing you, sad to say, I lost "it". So I'm asking, "can I have my heart back...please?" It's obvious that YOU don't want it... You CLAIMED that you needed it, but it seems that you're doing very well without it... Me, on the other-hand...I can't survive without it.

I understand that if my heart still resides with you - then I have NOTHING to give. Sure I can call someone else and talk to the wee hours of the morning, of course I can text any guy until all of my fingers cramp up, I can type an email as long as your #1 best-seller (WITH my eyes closed)...but if at the end of those MANY phone-calls, in the close of every "sincere" text, in the last line of all of my emails I can only say "bye/Lata" and never "I love you" - what do they really mean?? So will you PLEASE return MY heart to me so that I may one day GIVE it to it's RIGHTful owner? YOU've done a wonderful job of convincing me that it no longer belongs with you...

You don't have to be concerned with trying to restore what YOU broke...just return it, and make sure to give me ALL of the pieces. Thankfully the space-holder that now dwells in my chest is much warmer than an "ice-box" and once I empty in all of my broken pieces - with the right nourishment and sustenance, I'm sure, it'll be WHOLE and HEALTHY once again...

**said in my best "Ellen" voice** ...give it, I got it!!!

Beyond The Smiles: The Confessions of a Star,
SkylerNicole

Welcome...

Good evening readers! Welcome to my blog spot:

When you're out in the public eye it is sometimes easier to put on a "smiley face" and cover up whatever issues may lurk underneath those smiles than to be transparent and let the world know that "I hurt too". There is a certain amount of truth in saying that smiling and fronting keeps your "stuff" private - but on the converse side of things, it can also keep you bound if you don't ever release it...

Knowing the repercussions of "holding it in" all too well, I've decided to try and free myself of some of the baggage I've been carrying around with me for days, weeks, months, years, decades even - and take advantage of this outlet called BLOGGING. I'm here to share with the world what goes on beyond the smiles YOU may see everyday...

Beyond The Smiles: The Confessions of A Star

Enjoy!

Skyler Nicole